The Right Thing

I'm sick of being told to do the right things. Honestly, I don't even know what is right and what is wrong. A lot of people just told me to the right thing, but didn't even bother to explain at all. What is right for you, doesn't always right for me. What is right to do now, is not always the right thing to do then.

"I have a very strict family, my parent expect everything to go perfectly. They don't mind hitting their kids at all. Once, I played with my brother in living room and accidentally broke a vase, my parent beat me up so bad that I didn't go to the school the next day because I had bruises all over my body. One day, they bought a very expensive new stove. I couldn't help but to play with it and I broke it somehow. No one saw it. Do I keep silence? So I won't get beaten my parents? But what if, what if the stove explodes when someone tries to use it? Someone might die if I hide it just to save me from being beaten. Do I just go and admit that I broke it, so they know that the stove is broken and don't use it" (Not a true story, I made this up as an example)

Okay, the RIGHT THING to do NOW is telling the truth. But is "telling the truth" always the right thing?

"My dad was a drunkard, smoker, and gambler and had gone through a lot of problems because of that. He got into fight countless times with my mum, he was unhealthy and had respiratory disorder, was broke and almost lost his job. Fortunately, he realised the problems, and decide to quit all of them. Yeah, he quitted. His best friends, who always do those things above with him, were wondering why they never saw my dad again. So they came to visit my dad and my dad told them that he quitted. They said it's gay, and asked him to hang out with them again. They kept forcing him, so he didn't have other choice but to go with them. Dad realised he shouldn't see them again. Today, they come, and I'm the one who open the door. Do I tell them that dad is not at home at this moment, or I tell them that dad is inside?"

Telling the truth is NOT the RIGHT THING to do now, I believe. Oh, did you say that I should have just told them that my dad doesn't want to hang out with them anymore? As if they care if I tell them that. See, the right thing to do then, was not the right thing to do now. For me, I think it is right to lie at that situation, but for you, it is NOT. So, the definition of right thing is not the same for everyone.

"Our country has always been governed by the king. His orders are absolute, if he wants you to be dead, so are you. If he says the tax is increased by 10%, then it is. I can't take this anymore, I want a REVOLUTION". Is revolution the right thing? Revolution requires sacrifices, and that include human's lives. I might think that our country will be better when everyone has the voice for the country, everyone is allowed to give out their opinions and views. But do all the people agree? You might say that you don't want war, you don't want bloodshed, and we can try to find other way out. See the difference? I think revolution is the right thing to do now even that means WAR! But you say, revolution is not what we need right now, the people have suffered enough without war, you want a peaceful way out. You want to try to convince the king.

Did you read the news? About the suicidal bombing? Do you think it is right? No, of course not. So do I, it's not right. But why did they do that? For them, it's right to sacrifice their lives to kill their enemies, or so they believe. It's a form of prayer to their God, to kill who they think are their God's enemies. So who are you or me again? They don't give a damn about what we think is right or not. Their God says so (or they believe their God says so).

That brings us to the root of my discontentment, since everyone has different definitions, when you tell me to do the right thing. Do you mean the right thing by me or by you? If you just tell me to do "the right thing", but don't bother explain, then don't freaking blame me if I don't do what you've expected. If you want to control me, then write me a list of whatever I can do and I can't do. Every single of them. Make it clear, so clear, that there is no need to interpret any of the sentences with my own conscience. Because if I do have to, our interpretations are not always the same.

Not only between you and me, even between myself, there's disagreement with what is right and not. My thought says that I should stop doing this, I will lose anyway, save me the bother of trying, but my feeling, deep inside my heart, says that I should just go for it, doesn't matter if I'm going to lose or whatever, I should give my best shot, and then if I have to lose, I lost proudly. At least I tried and gave my best. I lost because I have limit, I can't reach something further than what my arm can extend!! Or grab more that what my hands can hold.

Still feel like telling me to do the right thing? Okay, I'll do it. I'll say "Shut up, you idiot". I believe that is the right thing to do NOW!!