Happiness (is not for me)

~ When I meet my soul mate, I’ll be happy.
But that means I can't do whatever I want whenever I feel like it. Freedom's taken.

~ If I wasn’t feeling sick, tired, and in pain, I’d be happy.
But that means I have to go to work, or do whatever the boring daily stuff. One thing sure, resting after an exhausting day, feels good.

~ My dream wedding will make me happy.
If I have children, they’ll fulfill me.
If only I didn’t have children, I’d be free to live my life and be happy.

~ If people understood me, everything would work out.
But that means, there is no more unexpected and exciting moment in my life. Everyone would know what I'm going to do.

~ I need more money before I can do everything I want to do.
That simply means I have to work for money. Boring!!

~ If I didn’t have to do this mind-numbing work, I’d be free.
But no work, no money.

~ If I was less attached to money and more spiritual, I’d be happy.
How I wish God could help me.

~ I need more time before I can be happy.
But this means I'm going nearer to my death. Does death equal happiness?

~ If I wasn’t afraid of taking big risks, I could live my dreams.
But if everyone always takes the risks, who will lose the chance?

~ If I was better looking and in better shape, I’d be happy.
But do good looking people always happy? Oh, no, I can't eat that, that'll make me fat... Oh, sorry, that's not good for my skin~

~ If people took me seriously, I could be happy.
But what will my life be then? I can't even make a joke.

~ If this tragedy hadn’t happened, I’d be happy.
But I'll never experience anything then. Surely life without tragedy is just like a movie with straight plot, no trouble, no complication. Simply boring!

~ One day I’ll become enlightened, and have lasting peace and serenity.
But will that day come in time, that is before my life ended. Heroes from the past who sacrificed their lives for peace and serenity, for the freedom of their countries, never enjoy the peace and serenity they had fought for. Some people spent their whole life trying to find enlightment, does the enlightment worth the efforts?

~ I’ll be happy when I’m recognized for my great ideas.
But do I even have the ideas? I have to spend my life thinking, mind-numbing work.

~ I’ll be happy when I retire, travel, and can take it easy.
Oh, and like I don't need money to do so.

Why I couldn't just be happy~ without the "but" after that.