Never Give Up

"Never give up", "Don't give up", "Keep trying", people say these a lot. Generally as a way to motivate others or to cheer up others. Some people tell themselves to "Never give up" because it seems like a correct positive attitude. Well it is most of the time, especially when what you're referencing to is from watching movies or reading stories. Everything in stories will eventually work out well in the end, because you know, the main character doesn't give up until the end.

Well, we might be too influenced by those stories, we sometime hope, deep down inside our heart that our life will work the same way it's in the stories when we don't give up. We did, we do and we shall! However, reality slaps and tells us to our face that is just not how the real world is. Things are complicated, too many things to be done but in limited, very limited amount of time. Unlike those characters in stories, who can train their fighting skills or other skills in that matter indefinitely of time because you know, they DON'T have to eat, take a bath, or work to get money to get food. They DON'T socialise, or whatever you can name, other than DO NOT GIVE UP! Their live don't go on when they give up, but ours do, that's the biggest difference.
Never give up, while it might seem right a correct attitude most of the time, is not always the right thing to do. There is time when you ought to know when to give up. You can't spend your whole time doing the same thing over and over again when you fail. Sometime you just need to move on, maybe you're not meant to do that, you'd never be good enough. Sometime it just doesn't worth the cause. Even if you don't care about you and your life, sometime what you do affects others in a bad way, like it or not, how you live your life can influence others. You can be ignorant and don't care about yourself, but consider others a bit. Sometime it's just silly, you're not in a good shape when you made the decision to not "Give up", of course you ARE. You FAILED!

Giving up sometime might end up better, instead of wasting time doing the impossible, you go forward, finding something that might actually worth the cause, or at least worth your cause. Time is limited, the world goes on with or without you, time ticks no matter what, stop and you'll be left behind. It's not easy to decide when to give up or when to not give up, you'll never know what actually are significant in your life that you shouldn't leave. You'd never know what's going to happen until it actually happens. Giving up on something might be the biggest mistake you could possibly do, but holding on to something, never giving up might also be your biggest mistake.

Giving up could result in endless regrets, made you think what might happen if you hadn't given up. "Oh, I could have that job now and have a good life if I just kept studying that subject" you might think, well, that is a possibility, but why you gave up in the first place? Because you're not good enough, that job might AFTER ALL still not be yours even if you didn't quit. That's another probability. Not giving up essentially might lead to the same thing. It made you think of what might happen if you had just given up. "Oh, I shouldn't have spend so much time doing this, a total waste of time, I could have just spent it doing others". Well, at least you tried, you'd never have to think "If only I didn't give up" and feel so useless you can't even give it a go.

Life is complicated, whatever you do, it'll never be right. Maybe you should just give up on life. Life is so difficult you seem to never get it right, but maybe later on, it might get better, a whole lot better, you'll never know. At the end of the day, trust yourself, your life, your decision. What's the worst could possibly happen? Embarrassing yourself to the point you couldn't face others anymore? Well, end your life, and even if others still remember, you don't, actually you CAN'T even if you want to. Find something you really feel like doing, cause in the end, anything you do will be somehow wrong anyway, so at least do something you think worths the fail.
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Random Things That Popped In Mind Before Exam

The time to part and leave will come someday, so, goodbye. Wait, goodbye? Why goodbye? Is parting that good that we will use goodbye? Isn't parting supposed to be sad and unwanted? Not necessarily, but sometimes yeah, we don't want to be apart with people we love, it's just that we have to. So why we say goodbye when we part with people we love? I know it's just a phrase we use. It doesn't literally mean good and bye. Or maybe it is, when a person who you don't like and keep bugging you say they have to go now, you want to say "Good, (finally) bye", disguising it as "goodbye" cause you know, we don't want to be the rude bad person and hurt their feeling. Joking aside, maybe goodbye is used because we want that person to be good, even after we leave, so be good and bye. I don't know. It's just somehow feel so wrong to say goodbye with happy face. It's like, I'm happy I'll not see you again, good bye.

Now, because I had so much spare time before my exam (I was still studying, but cause it's so boring, My mind wandered and I procrastined), I googled goodbye, apparently I was both so wrong and so close. Goodbye doesn't mean "Good, (finally) bye" or sarcastically "Good bye". It's as quoted from the freedictionary.com

"No doubt more than one reader has wondered exactly how goodbye is derived from the phrase "God be with you." To understand this, it is helpful to see earlier forms of the expression, such as God be wy you, god b'w'y, godbwye, god buy' ye, and good-b'wy. The first word of the expression is now good and not God, for good replaced God by analogy with such expressions as good day, perhaps after people no longer had a clear idea of the original sense of the expression. A letter of 1573 written by Gabriel Harvey contains the first recorded use of goodbye: "To requite your gallonde [gallon] of godbwyes, I regive you a pottle of howdyes," recalling another contraction that is still used."

Moving along, MONEY!! Everyone's life seems to revolve somewhere around money. Yeah, it's that important. But sometimes, we forget that "Money doesn't necessarily bring you happiness, you don't buy happiness with money, you buy things that MIGHT make you happy" and "The best things in life are always free". You don't buy love, best friends. Well, maybe you could buy them, but then love or friends that are there for your money? I wouldn't even think about that. So money is important but not everything. You might not be able to survive life without money, but that doesn't make money is the NUMBER ONE thing in your life. You were born naked, without any money, and still you survived, cause you have the best things in life, love. Your parent(s) or maybe someone else raised you! No matter how high class you think you are, or you are from royal family, or stuff, you're still born naked without money!!!

Why do people exist? Some people live their lives full of suffering. Hypothetically, let say human has lifespan of exactly 70 years. The second a human is born, at that second, that human is a second closer to 70 years or closer to the death. So, the second you were born, you started dying. Do we live to die?

God, I had so much time thinking about these kind of stuff, and actually wrote them down. Well, I hope I don't screw up later.

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Respect Is To Be Gained Not Given!!

I heard this "Respect Your Elders" a lot of times. But why? Is there a particular reason why I should respect the elders? I can't think of any reason to do that now, and I don't think there will be any in the future. A lot of elders expect to be respected, which is understandable, everyone will like to be respected, that includes me.

Don't get me wrong. I said that not because I don't respect elders. I said that because I think respect is not to be given to you just because you're old. If you want respect, behave, so others will think that you deserve the respect.

If you really love to be respected, and think you deserve to be respected because you're old, but you act like a douchebag. Here, let me give you my respect, "A Middle Finger" and "Fuck YOU, SIRE".
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What? That's a respect, I show you my respect by calling you "SIRE". According to Wikipedia, Sire was generally used to address a superior, a person of importance or in a position of authority or the nobility in general during Middle Ages. What more you can expect? I was being kind, honestly, I don't think you even deserve to be called Sire, but yeah, since we should respect the elders, I have no choice. So, after what I've done and said to you, will you respect me? If you say yes, well, THANK YOU! If you say no, then, you get my point. I wanted to be respected but acted like a douchebag. Do you think I deserve respect if I just walk to you and give you a "MIDDLE FINGER"? I guess you won't show me any respect at all if I do that.

Oh, before I forgot, for you who think you can act like whatever you want and don't show any respect at all just because your life is so miserable. You're asking for your miserableness. No "normal person" will love you, therefore you fail. But I think you deserve "Thank you" from me. You know what? I rarely have confidence in myself, I'm glad that I'm not you.

I'll respect anyone who deserves it. If you really are, I don't see why I shouldn't, even if you're way younger than me. I won't show any respect at all, I don't care at all even if you're way older than me, if I think you don't deserve one.

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Questions I Wanted To Ask

Once upon a time, lived two humans. One is a loner who doesn't like noise. This person spends the time alone, reading or writing. Oh, and is a dreamer too. The other one is so noisy and talks non-stop.

Someday, the first person had enough of the second person's jibberish. And said "OH God... Will you please just shut up?"

GOD : MORTAL!! YOU DO NOT COMMAND ME.

(WOW!!!) NO, no, this is not meant to you, this is just a phrase, what I really meant was "Oh... Please... Will you just please shut up".

GOD : Why did you use My name?

It's just like "OMG", people don't mean you, it's just an expression. I don't know how they came up with that "OH My God", probably because you're just like the condition people use "OMG" to. It's either mean awesome or surprisingly unbelievable, just like you. Upps... (I wish I didn't say that)

GOD : MORTAL!! AND YOUR EXCUSES.

Ouch... Why did you have to wake me up? I was talking to God in my dream and was about to ask him, "In Noah's Ark, did the God ask Noah to go to China to get panda, to Arctic Ocean to get polar bear, etc. Not to mention, if a White people have a child with a White people, you get White people, Black with Black will get a Black child, Asian with Asian will get Asian, etc. How come this world has so many races, while God only created two humans?

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Expectations

Do you have a lot of expectations with you?
Do you have many things that you expect of yourself?
Do your parents believe in you?
Do others demand something from you?
Do you want someone to do something for you?

Can you do so many things at once?
Will you fulfil all your wishes?
Do you do as your parents want you to?
Do others happy with what you've done for them?
Does that someone give you what you want?

Do you feel disappointed when you don't meet your expectations?
Do your parents feel content? Or do they feel like they’re raising a bastard?
Do others think you are a disgrace?
Or you think others are?

If most of your answers are yes, you might need to stop or slow down a while. One of the best ways to be happy is to NOT expecting ANYTHING at all! Yeah, when you don't expect anything and you get something, that thing will feel marvellous.

You expect you'll get a good grade for your exam. And, wow, you did get a good one. So what? No surprise, you expected it, you knew you're going to get one or at least you felt like getting one. What if, you didn't? Yeah, you're shit!

You don't expect anything at all. And then, suddenly, wow, good grade, hahahaha, you feel like as if you don't need other things anymore. Okay, you didn't get a good one. So what? Whatever, it's not like you're hoping for a good one anyway.

Even better, you expect that you're so screwed, you think you did shit on the exam. Get a good result? It's a miracle, you literally feel like you can fly. You got a bad grade? Not a big deal, you knew this would happen.

So, don't expect anything, or preferable, keep your expectations so low that anything that will happen, is better than what you expected. Keep it to yourself, you don't want other do nothing for you and say "Hey, it's alright if it's that person, that person is a sad soul that doesn't expect anything, and will not be angry or disappointed".

P.S Don't complaint or blame others when you do whatever that's been suggested. You choose to not expect anything, feel free to kill yourself if you wreck your life. I don't hold any responsibility for whatever I've said or suggested as in Hollywood is not responsible for telling you "Believe ... and you can fly".

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Am I stupid?

It's a good question, isn't it? I remember someone said "you're stupid" to me because I don't know about something. Yeah, yeah, whatever, you smartass. Oh, did you know that I think you're stupid? Oh, you don't, then, are you stupid by any chance?

Usually, stupid is used when
1. People don't know about something, so others call them stupid.
2. People can't understand about something, or slow to grasp the idea, so others call them stupid.
3. People can't do something that others can, so those others call them stupid.
4. Just for fun.
So, am I stupid?

~If by stupid, one means "knowing less than one does not know" that is there are more things I don't know than things I know. Then I am stupid, and so is everyone. Did you know that when you type "I am extremely" in Google search, you'll get racist suggestions. Did you know that in English every continent starts and ends with the same letter? (What the hell were those?). There are just things I don't know, no matters what I do. Study? The more I study, I realise there are more things I don't know and if I am stupid because I don't know, doesn't that mean the more I study, the stupider I become? An additional reason for me to not study and be lazy.

~If by stupid, one means "I can't comprehend about something", no doubt, I am stupid. No further explanation needed I think. I can't understand why you call me stupid because something doesn't make sense to me, so I guess I am stupid by your definition. Do you think you can understand everything in this world? Take your time then. Good luck.

~If by stupid, one means "I can't do things that most of you can", you can put me in your "list of stupid people you know". Since all of you can do it and are smart, but I'm the only one here that can't and stupid. You're the common, and I'm the unique. I'm stupid, but the winner here. There is only one stupid and so many smart asses? I'm a rare, endangered species. There will be soon conservation law for me. You'll have to protect me. What? I admit I'm stupid, but you're not happy with that. What else do you want from me?

~If I do something that all of you can't understand or don't even bother trying to know why I did that, but like to offer a "that's stupid" or "you're stupid" comment, then I humbly accept your kind offer. You know, something like turning down the scholarship from a prestigious university. I know, stupid yeah? Don't you know why I'm so stupid? Because apparently, I got a job offer from overseas company and not only that, they agree to pay for my tuition fee for studying in that country university. (That's an example, not a true story, I'm too dumb to be able to get scholarship anyway). Yeah, just because you don't bother asking, I'm stupid.

~If it's just for fun, obviously I don't mind you call me stupid. I'm stupid, you're stupid, so what? Let the smarts do the thinking, they invent iphone, laptops, new mobile phones, fast internet or whatever. Let them be, and let us be the ones who enjoy. Just because they invent iphone, doesn't mean they get a better iphone than we do. They get paid more than we do? Don't worry, just because they get paid 10 times more than we do, doesn't mean they can eat 30 meals per day or have 120 hours per day to play games or travel to 10 places at the same time or have 10 spouses or wear 10 shirts and trousers with a ring on each finger. Agree?

I'm stupid because I don't know, understand, or able to do something. Then, I'm stupid because most of the people don't understand what I'm trying to do. Next, because others can't understand why I'm doing the stupid thing, they're stupid as well (point number 2). That forms a stupid cycle, a cycle where because I'm stupid, you're stupid and because you're stupid, I'm stupid. Long story short, I'm indeed stupid. Why? Thinking normally, it's because I met all the criteria above. Brilliantly otherwise, the reason is "I need to write a freaking long article to tell you I'm stupid".

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Life And (not my) Choices

I believe that life is about choices I have to choose. Every choice I choose will lead me to other choices and so on. But that's not always true, because I don't always get to choose. Sometimes, there is no other way, sometimes, I'm forced to, sometimes, others choose for me, sometimes, I don't want to choose at all. Oh yeah, sometimes, the almighty "You Know Who" is the chooser. (Hey, I try to be fair here, every religion has different names for the almighty "You Know Who", just to be clear, I'm not talking about you, in case you're not that literate)

The first thing that I didn't have the chance to raise up my voice was "Where will I be born", I also couldn't choose what time (my birthday), by whom (my parents), neither my name. Name, yeah, I will carry this name, from the day I was born, until the end of my life, it's a big thing, but I had no choice. Imagine if my name's "Dick Face", and I someday be the director of a giant company. "Hello, my name is "Dick Face", the director of this company and your new boss" (hahaha, sorry, no offence intended). Oh, I can't pick my traits either, if I could, I'd be a "heartless creative genius with unbelievable reasoning ability and lives this life for the sake of nothing but wasting time" (boring . . .)

Then next, my parents, and so did your parents (maybe) were sick of us running wild everywhere while they were working. So they put us in school, "the place where all the kids are gathered together and supervised by some special assigned adults called teachers", so they didn't have to watch us and able to get their jobs done.

Many years ago, when the world weren't as advanced as now, people went into workplace early in their lives. There was really nothing much to learn, school was short, only a few of them complete a degree from university. Now? No, complicated stuff are more than ever, people need more training time, a degree from university is common now, that means, most people at least are 20++ years old before they get into workplace. Do we really need that much time? Not really, but yeah, we need to wait for our brains to be developed before we are able to comprehend those complicated stuff (You won't try to teach analysis, algebra, statistic, and matrix to a 9 years old kid, will you? Unless that kid is a genius). So maybe that's why we were fed meaningless facts to memorise at school, while waiting for the brains to be developed. Yep, rather than letting us run wild everywhere and distract the adults from doing their jobs, they kept us in school, memorising meaningless facts. I didn’t have the choice to skip remembering those meaningless facts. I was forced and made to memorise them. (Ugh... falling asleep, boring!!)

Now, let see, if I will get to choose what I will be after I graduate (I don't want to choose, really), and who I will spend the rest of my life with. . (zzz . . . fell asleep)

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